My name is Daniaal, I’m 19 years old and I’m in a debt of £6000. I never thought I would come to this stage but I’m in dire need of help, and this is my last and only hope left. Everything I’m about to explain was in pursuit of helping others around me but in the process threw myself in the same hole they were in.
As a kid I grew up watching my mother be abused by my drunken father every night (as a result led to me suffering from insomnia, depression and OCD) until they split up and she became a single parent. Growing up, it burned my conscious to see my mother struggle with me and my siblings (including my little brother who has Down syndrome) on her own. I always wanted to help but I was too young and as a result, incapable.
Come January 2017, my brother is a class A drug addict and has been for a couple of years, my family is still poor and struggling, and my mother is becoming old and tired. I finally found something that could work out, the stock market. I started trading in January with some money I had, and it was actually going well, I was becoming happy in my path to paying for my brothers rehab and to improving the lives of my family members (along with helping pay the bills, food, and other basic needs). Of course I wasn’t making thousands but I was making more than I could if I worked a normal job. I didn’t tell my mother about what I was doing as I wanted to surprise her.
Now the thing is, I was accumulating the money in my trading account so that my profits would be larger every time I made a trade, so I didn’t actually get to taste any of that money in the end. Eventually I got overexcited and lost everything I had invested. I was really upset but I couldn’t stop there, my long awaited goal to bring my family and I out of this ditch, was not met. I borrowed money off of friends, and took loans to start over, but then lost it all again. The process repeated several times until I was almost in a paradox of loss and re-motivation, kind of like a gambler I thought I could make back what I lost. It then hit me that I’d made a huge mistake and that I’d put myself in the very hole I wanted to get my family out of.
By this time it was way too late. I created a huge debt for myself and was lost in a void of negative thought, deeper depression and failure.
Now, I’m hanging on one last thread, every day I wake up hating life and thinking of ways to pay my debt. I haven’t told my mother because that’s the last thing she needs on her plate. I don’t know what to do anymore, I really need help and I will forever be grateful. Any money that I get will help put my life back on track and get me out of this crisis that I’m dealing with, thank you so much.