I recently lost my son to SIDS. Being a mother was the most important, rewarding thing I’ve ever done. I loved my son more than life and one day, he was gone. I have no other children. My partner left right away, which was fine because that was a terrible relationship. I am grieving to the full extent of the word and I’m suffering from PTSD from his loss. I decided to move across the country to be closer to my family. Family seems like the most important thing right now and having people to love is so precious to me. However, they still live a few hours away from where I could find work. Moving across the country was expensive and I have many bills associated with both the birth and death of my son. I work for the government and the job I got here is extremely stressful. I have a caseload and am beholden to production standards so I have to make my numbers everyday. I want to have the self determination to live the best life that I can. My son never got the chance. I don’t want to waste mine.
I live with a lot of sadness, but realize my life could be better if I was able to have some control of my day to day. I noticed a business for sale that could be within reach, but I have no assets and no savings to give a down payment. I would love to be part of a community instead of just toiling away everyday to pay my bills. I want to interact with people and form real relationships. I think doing this would enable me to find at least a fraction of the happiness I had when my Roger was here. Please help me do this in his memory. Help me to not waste my life being unhappy at work and to know that I can make this dream come true. paypal.me/steffsaint