For years I’ve been trying to see-through a vision that encompasses my whole Life. Health issues, unfortunate events and downright back luck have plagued this difficulty. I am a bit of an underachiever in the music realm and have been sitting on a bit of a masterpiece for a few years. The situation financially has been tough for me like a lot of musicians trying to make music in this era but recently some things have really complicated what’s been going on.
It seemed a string of bad luck and misfortune came to an end last year when I was approached by a “super fan” of a band I have small connections with who offered to support us for my new record after hearing a demo.
To make the story short, he really screwed me. He sent me to the studio I wanted to be in, he invested in the instruments I needed, he took my band to lavish dinners and spent money on whatever. I took a couple months off work so I could devote my Life full-time to the record. I spent what little I had from my meager inheritance for necessities (rent, food) and put my entire Life and energy into making this happen. But then I realized I had wasted all our time everything came crashing down.
When we were nearly finished with the record the “investor” decided to take the recordings he paid for (almost the entire record) and force me to give him the rights to the material. The man was so difficult to deal with and unstable I decided to sever the relationship completely for the sake of my mental health. All instruments and everything he paid for are gone- he took it all back. I also have since been contacted by other bands telling me he did something similar to them and I was lucky to have gotten out when I did and apparently the guy is a lunatic. I wish someone had warned me beforehand.
I had a bit of a mental breakdown after this occurred. Someone taking your very personal artwork hostage is a terrible feeling. I have had severe depression and anxiety my whole entire Life and this definitely did not help and a lapsed into a deep, dark episode. I felt like my vision and my Life-long dream was right there at my fingertips and suddenly so rudely stolen away. However, I am lucky to have supportive friends who have kept me going and the music is good enough I know it is a reason for me to continue fighting on. I’m back on my feet and just want to make this happen. I just need a little assistance.
I am asking for money that will help me make the record. I can do it better now than we were doing it and I can record it for much cheaper than what he was paying at the fancy studio. I want to pay for it in my own name and choose what happens to the recordings. I’m asking for a simple $3,000. It’s just something I don’t have right now and really would make things a lot easier as I can hardly make ends meet. The money will go mostly to recording, gear for recording and musicians. I also would like to spend some of it on my antidepressants and another medication I need for a nerve disorder that weakens my hands and makes it difficult for me to play. I have struggled to work and save money for them since this all went down.
I have always had a really hard time asking people for help. I’m doing this now because I feel like there really isn’t much else I can do. I’m worried sometimes that I just can’t go on without at least seeing what I can do. I’ve waited for a break, and when it finally came I was railroaded. Time is of the essence in situations like this and I need to get back in and lay this stuff down ASAP. I really hope someone out there who can help me will read this and consider contributing. Thanks for reading.