My life began to unravel as I knew it at the end of August 2021.
I was previously what the media would describe as a ‘frontline hero’ at the beginning of the COVID-19 pandemic. Being a former enterprising Uber and Lyft driver as the world lockdown for the sake and hope of containing a virus, I remained working while much of the world stayed at home. I switched paths and became a delivery driver for companies such as Instacart, DoorDash, and Uber Eats. I took pride in what I could do for those that were homebound in the midst of it all. I took great care and provided service with a smile for those that trusted me with their food.
I made a great living in 2020. I did well enough for much of 2021 as well, despite jarring hiccups that would have ended my life had God not been with me…until August 2021.
Don’t get me wrong, God is still with me. However, through many signs, the comfortable, formulaic job of fetching people of various classes and races their daily or weekly meals had begun to run its course.
To stay afloat after the car was totaled, I rented a car weekly to continue to work. The accrued costs of doing business just to maintain a living eventually took its toll on my financial standing. Everything came to a screeching halt financially in mid-January 2022.
By that point, I was living on a wing and a prayer. The wing finally broke clean off and I began to spiral in a downward direction for all of 2022. I received quite a few signs to pivot in a brand new direction toward the end of 2021. It seemed like my calling was primarily copywriting, so I studied and invested as much time as I can in that. I took whatever opportunity that presented itself such as affiliate marketing, graphic designing, selling life and home insurance, real estate investment/wholesaling, and much more. I wasn’t looking to get rich ASAP, but I was following and putting my faith in these signs that I was being led to.
Unfortunately, it costs to leverage to utilize someone else’s knowledge and money to bring revenue for yourself. I wasn’t able to transition as smoothly as I would have hoped and prayed for. The loans that I took out for coasting in 2021 were defaulted and credited off by the end of 2022. The same with the credit cards that I had. My very good credit nose dived into a poor level last year as well. The rapport that I built with my former landlord disintegrated into nothingness as well. I voluntarily vacated the premises being 2 months behind in rent rather than to put us both through a lengthy eviction, on my part. The possessions I had (both necessary and frivolous) were either given away, thrown away, or abandoned.
Discovering an unforeseen lot in life, without giving up on myself, I took uncomfortable action and moved cross-country for a few months to stay with a sibling and her family in their spare room. That did not work out after a while as I sequestered myself into doing the work that would allow the dream and the vision to come true. They thought I was wasting time and productivity by the threat of being a strain on their comfort of living. After not seeing eye to eye on multiple fronts, I left them after 4 months and moved back to my home state. I am living with my mother in the same situation- in a spare room.
I have applied to work dozens and dozens of jobs all throughout the last year. With the exception of working as an online transcriber for a week in June, nothing gelled in which I could regain my stability all throughout last year.
Now it is January 2023. I have gone through so much stress, heartache, disappointment, personal betrayals, and many false starts that I still find it amazing that I was able to transition into a new calendar year mostly intact. But I do not want to relieve what I went through.
I want this to be a year of triumph and redemption- through God’s grace of course! The only reason why I stuck to this vision of mine is not so much for personal gain, but to be in an abundant space to help as many people as possible before I expire. Of course, it would be fantastic to repay my family members for their generosity (and inconvenience) but to give from the depths of my heart anonymously on and offline, in spaces like these and in real life…anonymously if I can help it – as much as possible In fact, I feel like it is the only reason why I am still alive.
If you can find it within your heart to help me regain my stability again, I would tremendously appreciate it. For much of my life, I have been so used to doing for myself for so long. The past year has taught me humility – that sometimes, one has to swallow their pride and ask for help if need be.
I am swallowing my pride and applying that lesson right now. My link if you wish to give is www.paypal.me/EIdosu. Thank you so much in advance.