I m a woman of 55 years old. Raised three children. Have two grandchildren. An ex husband and a second future ex husband.
I was born in Germany as an adoption child from an orphan home and brought to the Netherlands.when I was 16 I accidentally found out I was adopted.
I had many good and bad experiences in my life but still looking at the bright side of life.
As I am lately in pretty urgent need of some funds to be able to survive myself and if i can get a good start i will be able to make money again so I can pay all bills, food, to support my children and grandchildren and my 83 year old Mum who all live 9800 kms away from me.
Because i wanted to flee my violent psychopathic second husband i went to the UK in 2014 and then i fled to Thailand 2 years ago.
But he came after me trying to kill me numerous times.
I had to pay police and mafia 2,6 million baht and even hide and be on the move with bodyguards until he left thailand and went back to Netherlands,
but i had no money left anymore.
I still dont know how to divorce him without being killed. Unless i do it from Thailand but thats even more expensive.
He also threatens to hurt my sons and daughter and poor mother there in the Netherlands but i cant do anything from here.
Not without money.
Money for lawyers, travelling, living, and getting back somehow my life work.
I wrote thousands of lyrics for music, made compositions, scenarios and lots of documentaries, short films, etc.
Most of them ready to sell..but my ex must have got rid of all…
all my things which were in storages.
He sold my car illegally without documents so who knows what people do with my car there.
He took all my money (more than 280.000 euro) and all i had left in netherlands.
Even the jewelry from my greatgrandmother..
All my photos, films.
He sold even my dear horse, my dog, my owl and rabbits…without my knowing. He said they were stolen..i found out later that wasnt true at all.
I lost almost everything. Everything I worked for all my life..
He was/is a cheater. Liar. Psychopath. Junkie. Sociopath. I wanna divorce asap. But also very expensive..
I have nothing left anymore.
Only living on my own in Thailand where i got stuck with a small bar which i was forced to buy for my ex otherwise he would have killed me.
I m a loner and dont like seeing ppl every day. Im running this bar now 14 months but am not able to sell it for a normal price. I invested too much money in it bc i believe and trust always the wrong people.
And bc i dont know anything about bars or hospitality and detest it even. Its destroying my health.
Every day more. I have to go 7 days a week to the bar.
I have depressions now. I never wanted a bar. I dont understand ppl. I trust everyone who is nice to me…so wrong.
Im ethologist. Writer. Film/tv director. Soundengineer E.n.g. animal trainer. Researcher. Scientist.
And hate going to bars.
I lack sleep grossly.
Sleep 1 or 2 hours only.
Im a morning bird. Not a nightlifer.
Dont like crowds.
Like to be on my own.
Free in nature. With animals. Sun. Sea.
I can never relax. 18/7 busy for a bar i never wanted. I detest..its destroying me..
Im so so tired.
Next month i ll be 56.
I cannot pay any insurance or health insurances.
I have nothing left to go to hospital either. And im not feeling well since 6 months.
So my goal is to get rid of the bar asap. Even with big loss.
But then i will be on street soon.
And cant do anything against ex.
No divorce without 12.000 euro.
Cannot help nor protect my family.
Im a fighter.
But the only solution for me is get a financial input to go work on my own projects..things i like to do. Im good at.
And where I will go for.
Like big projects for breeding and later releasing extincting species. Other big projects to remove the dirt and chemicals on earth and to prevent new environmental disasters. And so many more.
All where i can put all my energy and soul into.
A new challenge too.. And then i succeed…as usual.
And this time no one will take away what i worked for all my life..I won’t let that happen again!
Thank you for your time.