Hi! My name is Natalia, I’m 23 years old, and I’m from Chicago, Illinois. I’ve decided to reach out because basically, it’s as though I’ve “financially doomed” since I was born.
My mom was very sweet, but my dad was physically abusive. I was 5 when my mom found the courage to arrest him and file for divorce. During my first 5 years of life, I thought I was Daddy’s Little Princess, but I soon learned I was actually Daddy’s Little Punching Bag.
My mom was basically co-owner of my dads trucking business, however he never legally gave her that title, nor made her a signer on his bank accounts, thus leaving my mom only with my brother, me, and the house. As if being a single mother to a 9 year old and 5 year old, she was a Polish immigrant, with no family in America, and spoke little English. Nonetheless, she worked 3 jobs, totaling at 15 hour work days.
About 5 years later, my brother started getting black-out angry and violent. He hurt my mom for 4 years, but me for 9 years. I saw vases, dishes, and 12 windows get broken by him. I jumped in the fighting while he hurt our mom, just to be his new target because I couldn’t let him beat her. I felt his beatings, him slamming me between doors, thrown down stairs, stabs from butter knives, and chokes for air.
Once I left for college, that’s when my depression really hit me. Being away from the home that I knew was when repressed memories flooded back to me. After 2 years, I had to leave university because I wasn’t mentally stable for rigorous studies anymore.
Since then, I’ve been floating between classes at a community college, just trying to find something to pursue, while also working part time to help mom, making saving almost impossible.
Debt keeps accumulating, and trying to find a better job that works with school hours so well, has been difficult.
Being stuck in this loop of “financial doom” is beyond stressful. It’s as if every time I try getting ahead, I get pushed back 10 steps with appliances breaking down at home, the car my mom and I share having issues, and just the cost of living. Thus, why I figured, maybe if I got a nice head start financially, maybe I won’t be as stressed, more focused, and finally ready to find myself.
I will beyond grateful to anyone willing to help me out!
Thank you for taking the time to read my life story and need for help!