Dear compassionate individual,
I am a 33yo female. Born and raised by my single mother, in the south side of Chicago. I play bass guitar. I am an artist. I rescue and rehabilitate reptiles. I love animals, music, gardening, plant medicine and philosophy and I have worked as a professional bartender for 14 years. I would love to learn carpentry, welding and hope to travel the world. I grew up in an unstable and dysfunctional family so, I have spent a good portion of my life alone. A bit of a loner, borderline autistic, creative and passionate nomad. I began working at 15yo and by junior year I dropped out and got my GED. At the age of 26, I moved to Denver, Colorado with my Dogs and less than a couple hundred dollars in cash. By 28yo, I made it to Oceanside, California. I had finally made a home for myself.
Unfortunately, I had a bad snowboarding fall which led to one injury after another. I had a rotated and fractured sacrum and ruptured psoas muscle putting me in a permanent state of “fight or flight” and constant pain. However, I continued working and going on about my life, completely unaware that I was in danger of losing myself.
By 2022, I was put on antidepressants, my absentee father died from intentional overdose, one of my 15yo pups was dying of lymphoma and my roommates and I were being evicted due to covid and hazardous living conditions. for 3 months, I didn’t have a stable home but, I was still working full time, caring for 6 reptiles and one senior dog in my unsustainable state. In February 2023, I was laid off, moved into an abandoned apartment and I was suffering from “failure to thrive”. for 8 months, I would remain there, desolate, desperate, determined to get a grip or find some impossible way to cope. Suddenly, on June 5th 2023, my rotated sacrum finally released and I have been improving everyday since.
I packed up my dog and reptiles and drove back to Chicago. Currently, I am living in a closet in my mom’s basement. I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia due to untreated physical trauma and referred to pain management and orthopedic specialist. however, I cannot receive treatment in Chicago with California state insurance. So after all that, I find myself right back where I started. Back in this place to tried so hard to escape from.
I hope to one day make it back to California and be reunited with my art work and reptile habitats from my storage unit. I’ve always dreamed of buying my mom a house. Maybe live on a farm, start a family, and a little animal sanctuary. I look back on my life and wonder; Were to odds stacked against me from the beginning? Or did I zig when I should have zagged? Regardless, I have gazed into that abyss and surrender but now, I am so grateful for the experiences that have made me who I am and to know that I still have so much more to offer. With this new perspective on life, I am thrilled to see what the future holds for me.
Today, I am receiving state disability benefits which is not enough to cover my monthly bills. I have about $10,000 in credit card debt and I desperately need a place to call home. I am not here necessarily asking for money. I’m looking for opportunities. I would travel anywhere for the right opportunity. A place to call home for me and my old dog. A chance to start again, to heal, to regain my confidence, rejoin society and give back.
Thank you for your time and consideration.