I’m kind of at the end of my rope & rock bottom here, I left my homestate 4 years ago to move in with my Dad to try & see and make it in the state he’d lived in and I met a lot of cool people, worked at a lot of good jobs (& a lot of shitty ones) and so on. We didn’t see eye to eye & I moved back home, then ended up moving again to the home-state of some work friends I’d met, who threw me out once my job fired me. From there I bounced from shelter to shelter & group to group, traveled to some pretty decent states (being an East Coaster, seeing California & a lot of the Southwest getting there was amazing) and so on. Nothings ever really worked out for me though & I’ve been fired from jobs for rly minor reasons & quit a few just from dissatisfaction. Done some volunteer work & a lot of favors from people but never really made friends – I’m Bi & people always seem to gravitate towards and then away from me.
So I’m back in my home state again now & on the street. Found out I was adopted & that my parents both had schizophrenia [which has been getting worse for me in the last few years. Kind of stabilized by now but.. yeah.] & my adoptees knew about that & that I might be autistic & didn’t tell me – I had to find out after the fact, same with the adoption. Finally biting the bullet and swallowing my pride and living in a makeshift structure under a bridge to avoid the toxicity of the shelter system while accessing as many programs as possible but I’m tired, hungry, [even with an EBT card] stressed, thirsty, going through nicotine withdrawals & just overwhelmed lately doing everything by myself. My family doesn’t feel like my family anymore & my friends kind of shut me out of their lives or moved away from here a long time ago and I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD at this point but have no meds. I pretend everything is okay in public & with people all of the time but it’s really not at all.
I don’t even have a car or a bike, I never managed to get enough money for the former & I don’t have any for the latter
I’m at a plaza with multiple hotels & motels and I was wondering if anyone would be kind enough to throw 100 $ or so for me to get a room for the night just to have some natural rest so I can get through the rest of this week & the next one with at least some natural, non-stressful sleep under my belt but tbh, anything helps. There’s a pantry near me & places to get food but that’s not everything ykno
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