Hello everyone, My story is probably like many others but I am desperate. I have always been a worker and a mother. Now, not so much these days. This is a last hope for me not to lose the little I have left- essentials for living. I could ask for help with one thing but my situation is more broad than that. I understand people are suffering in these times of recession and inflation around the world. So I appreciate you just taking the time to hear my story and any financial help would be great. I am just looking to survive during these times too. But I keep getting knocked down and I am out of options. I have tried looking for financial assistance from our state and/or government, here in the USA but that is all run around dead ends for me. And my time has ran out. I am desperate and my pride has left me little hope of not losing everything from my car, home, and mental health.
I worked through the pandemic until end of 2019. I was part of the management team and it was highly recommended we get vaccinated. They didn’t mandate but you get the point right. Between that pressure, my mother is a 3x Cancer survivor and she is getting up there in years- she wouldn’t let anyone visit who didn’t get it. Well, being in medical, we got front line for vaccinations and I received Moderna 2-doses. Since the first vaccine, I have suffered from side effects that leave me with migraines and other things. I have asthma get sharp pains inside my chest area. At the end of of 2019, I had to leave my job to take care of my aunt. I didn’t receive any pandemic funds, being it was right at the cut off-I was told. My family doesn’t have a lot of money but they all contributed what they could but it just wasn’t enough and I felt the loss of income. And I had to make sacrifices to stay above the water. When my aunt was able to tend to her needs more, she went to live with my mother and I went back to work. Within the first month, I caught Covid and was deadly sick. I lost slot of hair and I cannot stay focused. I have PTSD and many years ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I didn’t think that the doctor diagnosed me correctly nor did she provide any information about the illness or aftercare instructions. I was given Xanax and lithium and sent on my way. I never touched the Lithium- that stuff eats brain. I took the Xanax due to the panic attacks I get sometimes. But that was over many years1 I never went back to that doctor. I have a therapist who treats my PTSD but I think it’s time to get serious about my health. I was let go from the last job because I went to the owners about the manager making comments about old people and not wanting them to work for him. And also, because the manager was a thief and the owners had him take tips to cover missing product- that he took more from me than everyone else. Maybe I should have kept my mouth closed but when I made over 200 and relied on it to feed myself and have gas- walking out with 25-75 hours as not acceptable. I have always been in management and I know when my rights are being violated. I am too old to be letting that happen to me, lol. Well, it was a blow to my mental health being fired for someone else’s errors and the fact I was lied on like I was- well I completely have lose my will to go out in public. I get anxiety attacks and cannot handle someone else driving me anywhere: I get nervous in public and don’t want to be around anyone. If you knew me just last year, you wouldn’t never believe I am who I am right now. I have tried to get back to work but for whatever reason, no one had hired me yet. But in honesty, I cannot commit to a job and not give it my all, so I have shied away from even trying to look for work. I cannot give anyone my all because I am not at my all or even close. Not yet. Well life and expenses do not care about my sad story. They need to get paid. I need to make doctor appointments and find the help I need to get my mental health in order. When I got sick from Covid, it has triggered all the signs and symptoms of being bipolar and I didn’t do anything about the diagnoses from about 15 years ago. I need to address that but more importantly, I need to figure out what the vaccines and the actual virus had done to my body and mind. There is no resources, from what I have found, for anyone who says they are not well from vaccine or that still have symptoms in the aftermath of the pandemic. You are on your own, unless you want to join a study group. No thank you, it has gotten enough out of me.
I have never asked anyone for any handouts in my life. I wish I didn’t feel desperate as I do and my time is running out. I will be without utilities or a home to live in. I live in a roommate environment and it would be really crappy to leave them holding the bag. They are like lost Americans right now- barely able to put dinner on the table. So once again, thank you for listening to my story, I know it isn’t as bad as other , I can imagine. The only reason I went forward with this, is because I have always been on the other end- helping others in their time of need. I feel it wouldn’t be just me asking for help; money- I would be me asking for a alittle of the pay it forward karma I have coming. Lol.
I have to set an amount so I will set it at 25,000 because that would be the amount I need not lose my home, car, and also, to get creditors taken care of enough to focus on my health without the worry of not having a job right now.
My cash app tag is $DDDeLapp. Take care and be kind to one another.