First of all I apologize if u have already read my post but I cant find it and I’m sure I didnt put my PayPal address on here and also I’m new to this. I dont even know if it’s real. But I hope n pray it is. I’m in a 6 yrs long relationship with a man that is abusive. We have a 5 yr old son together. He used to be physically abusive and now its mental abuse and it’s just as bad if not worse. Far as the physical abuse, he used to choke my till I was close to blacking out, I have gotten drug out the door and down the steps by the hair of my head, he gave me the first black eye I have ever had, when I was 5 months pregnant with our son he choked me on the floor I couldn’t breathe so I was doing anything I could to get up and scratched his face trying to get up, the law was called I guess by the neighbor and when they arrived I went to jail 5 months pregnant because the WOMAN cop saw he had the scratch and I was in jail 48 hours. That’s just the beginning of it . People always say WELL JUST LEAVE. It is not the easy in an abusive relationship just to pack up and leave. For me I’m a stay at home mom that homeschooled my son. His abusive dad has beat me down so much mentally also that I lay awake at night thinking of the things he has called me and done to me. He tells me I’m a piece of crap mom, and I’m ruining our son by being a stay at home mom, he tells me he wishes I wasnt Tristans mom. By the way that is my little boys name ( Tristan) his dad’s name is Jon. Jon has told me he hates me 100 times and that he wishes I would die so many times. He blames me for EVERYTHING that happens as far as arguments and fights it’s always my fault. Yes I have called the law and the neighbors have have more then anything and EVERYTIME they insisted that I be the one to go find somewhere to stay that night because it 9 out of 10 times happens at night when hes good and drunk. But the cops always insist I wake my son up and go somewhere and stay the night . I cant do that and they never insist that he leave and go stay somewhere so nothing ends up getting done about it. And after they leave I go through hell more. I stopped calling them because if anything I END UP PAYING FOR IT. I have a car to drive but it’s in his name .He has taken the license plates off of it so I cant drive it, he has done something to make it not crank a few times so I couldn’t drive it, he has told me ( BITCH IF YOU TAKE OFF IN THAT CAR I WILL CALL THE LAW AND REPORT IT STOLEN). The car anyway is old and when I’m allowed to drive. The car has left my son and me stranded so many times because it wouldn’t crank up. I remember one time before he got that car he was taking me somewhere that I needed to go early one morning and the whole way there we were arguing over him not wanting to take me so when we get there I get out and and go the the back passenger door to get my son out. I grab the door handle and Jon takes off. It almost ripped my hand off and I got slung down in the parking lot in the dark because it was early morning. He speeds off with my son leaving me laying in a dark cold parking lot with my pocketbook and everything in it all over the ground. He just left me laying didnt even care if he had ran over my hand or foot . He just left and I couldn’t get him on the phone all day to find out WHERE MY SON IS. He would let me know and mind you my son is with me 24 hours a day 7 days a week. I was so worried. Finally late that evening Jon brought him home THANK GOD. Because if always had it in the back of my mind that he may one day take my son and leave for good because he tells me he hates that I’m Tristans mom. I do the VERY BEST I can at being a mom. And Jon has called DSS on me before and ask them how to get a child taken from their mother ( talking about me). The DSS lady told me that he ask her that. I have taken out a DVO on him before and he kept texting me telling me how so sorry he was that he realizes what he has lost and that he misses us because at the time he was NOT allowed no where around me or Tristan . Well eventually he had convinced me that he was truly sorry and would change so I dropped the DVO and about a week later he started the abuse again. About a month later after dropping the DVO we had gotten evicted out of the apt that we lived in. After he had gotten everything out of the apt because everything is his and he reminds me of that frequently but after he had gotten everything out he leaves Tristan and me standing at the front door of an empty apt with a few cloths and things beside me. While he was backing out I asked him WHAT ABOUT US. His response was Tristan has a place with me at mom’s, and see them trees FOR ALL I CARE BRIDGET YOU CAN GO LIVE IN THOSE WOODS. 😞 My dad and mom helped and Tristan to stay in a hotel for a while but they cant help but so much. Eventually he gets another apt and Tristan and me move in with him because it’s either be homeless or move in with him. And all I wanted was a roof over my sons head and a home where I could take care of him. Sometimes I wanna just give up but I know I have to keep going for Tristan. And I think to myself ,Well for one thing if I leave he will not let me take the car that he claims to have gotten for me. So if I left I would be careless. I wouldn’t have a home, I dont have any money at all, no credit cards . I never have any money. Jon works but it’s hard to get any money from him. Guys whoever’s is reading this and I hope this is real and someone will PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME AND MY SON. I could go on all day long and I probably haven’t told everything I wanted to. But I figure I dont want to make whoever’s reading this to have to read a book. If there is any help out there I would be so grateful, and thankful beyond words. I dont like begging AT ALL but I dont know what else to do.
So PLEASE AND THANK YOU. SINCERELY Bridget White😘 One more thing, I’m gonna put my PayPal account here because I’m not sure where to put it at where people can see it. paypal.me/Bridgetdawn76