Ok, I know what you’re thinking. This looks like a Click-bait post but it isn’t. I swear.
My name is Angie and I need some help buying some support animals for myself. All my life I’ve grown up around cats. My mother loved animals and always managed to find a new one to bring home but she especially loved cats. Her love became my love. It even bled into my work since I ended up becoming a pet sitter.
But due to the pandemic, my work has been slow. I’ve gotten a few cat clients requests but my heart aches for my own since I’m home more.
This year has been harder than most for me. I started 2020 sick (not from Corona), had the worst birthday ever, I lost so much work, my car broke down, my fiancé cheated on me and destroyed any potential of reconciliation, quarantine happened, continued racial injustice and several of my friends lost loved ones. And on top of that, my ex was actively trying to kick me out of our home so she could have her ex/gf over after gaslighting about their relationship for months.
I suffer from general anxiety and a mild from depression but I’ve been managing my conditions for years with weed, dance, a quality sense of humor and therapy. Before the pandemic, I worked 7 days a week by choice, helped my grandmother, picked my niece’s and nephew up from school, was active in my dance community and was forever doing favors for my friends all while trying to finish school.
These past few months of heartache and anxiety have pushed me farther into the mindset of hurting myself far more times than I’d like to admit. My therapist has been pushing for me to consider medication since April and I finally caved a month ago and set up a psychiatry appointment.
Now I’m on an antidepressant but my therapist doesn’t think that’s enough.
This is where the donations come in. I need hope. More than that, I need something to look forward to. I’ve been working more and I got a new job but my bills leave me little for disposable income at the moment. I’m sure once things open back up again for real, I’ll be getting more work but right now I’m strapped for cash since I’m also trying to save for a new place. I’ve applied for unemployment and got no where. Also tried getting a small business loan but I’ve yet to hear back from that, too.
I’m asking for donations to get two Bengal kittens. I would just get two random kitties off the street but too many people in my life are highly allergic to cats and I want them to able to come to my home or be in my car without bursting into hives.
I’ve found a local breeder and I’ve already contacted them about purchasing some kittens in the fall. I’ve seen what having a pet does to someone dealing with mental illness. It uplifts them. Animals give them someone else to care for. It’s hard to wallow in depression when someone else needs your help to survive.
I would post this on Facebook or Instagram but I don’t want my family and friends to worry about me. I also don’t want the pity or judgment. Asking for this hurts more than they’ll understand.
The amount I’m asking for is $4000. It’s enough for my kittens, their food, toys and their room that I’ll be creating in my new home.
I started this year planning on marrying the love of my life and building a future together. To now just praying I make it to the end of each month. I just want a place for myself and my cats. No more, no less.
If you’re able to donate, even just 5 bucks, would help me so much. My Cashapp url is BengalDream.
Even if you can’t donate, thank you for reading my story. Positive thoughts and prayers are also welcomed.